Archive | September, 2015


22 Sep

It’s way past midnight, and I’m up and afraid of sleeping, not because I fear oblivion – I love it – but because retiring to it is allowing time to outrun you and the next thing you know, it’s another day. Another day to face the problems from yesterday, and a new day for new problems to arise. Right now I feel like giving up, but then again, what does it mean? There’s no such thing as just ‘stop’; life is always a crossroad of choices, chances. There’s always somewhere to go. But I’m tired and ruined, and I just lost myself in a blizzard that shook my entirety. I don’t know who I am, I don’t know who to turn to. I am an emperor losing the mandate of heaven. A flower withering away. A star void of its dead light. A song that’s becoming a forgotten combination of notes…